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I’m extremely lucky to live in a country which is the 2nd biggest ice-cream consumer per capita in the whole world (1st one is Italy). Every summer, all ice cream manufacturers bring new (limited edition) ice cream flavors on the market. Since this is an annual tradition, they have to be innovative with their flavor combinations.
Because ice cream is such a big thing here, almost all big cafe chains sell ice cream, too. They have more freedom to try out different flavor combinations because their income doesn’t rely on the ice cream only. I have gotten flavors like chocolate & campaign, avocado, and beer from one of such cafe chains. They also bring new flavors on the market for summer time.
Then there are all these ethnic stores which also have new ice cream flavors. The newest finding was chocolate & vanilla & lingonberry from an Estonian store. I’ve had all of those flavors separately but never together so it was a new flavor.
Restaurants (and some bar pubs) also sell ice cream.
Whenever I can travel abroad, I try to find ice creams to taste.
The next ice cream flavor will be number 280 and I admit that finding new flavor combinations is getting challenging. My best bet nowadays are new mochi flavors, as mochi ice cream is getting more and more popular here.
I AM ALIVE! Despite all the medication for the anxiety so far trying to coax me to kill myself :’))) It’s been horrible! When I realized I had been thinking about the best possible way to kill myself so that it doesn’t cause any trouble to others (like how to protect apartment floors from blood and decomposition of a body), I quit the meds.
I have never been suicidal and have never been harming myself so I knew it was the medicine talking, as it’s a quite common side effect.
My doctor is nice and has given me a permission to adjust my medication intake as I see fit and immediately stop if I get bad side effects. I have a new appointment next month where I will tell how it’s going (bad) and I think we’ll try new medication.
As both of my siblings are autistic with ADHD, and had the same issues with anxiety and depression medication, I think this happening also to me is a quite big arrow pointing towards the possibility of me being autistic with ADHD, too.
Withdrawal from the meds is a struggle of its own but I mentally feel so much better without them. I rather live with constant babbling in the back of my head, anxiety, social issues etc. without the meds than take medication which makes me like a zombie who actively plots her own demise (which is not who I am, and no, I don’t plan to take my own life).
It’s also telling that I started an online therapy for anxiety and after hearing my reasons for this therapy, the therapist immediately said: “Listen, this isn’t for you so you can quit any time you want or decide not to go through this therapy at all. Have you considered an ADHD test instead?”
I plan to go through the therapy so doctors get some evidence that nope, this isn’t just regular anxiety but something else.
Thank you for your kind well wishes! I’m OK and all suicidal thoughts did indeed left after I stopped my medication.
I wanted to say that anxiety and depression medication(s) do not normally cause a person to become suicidal. There’s a note on the list of all side effects stating that IF the patient is on the medication because they ALREADY HAVE suicidal thoughts or urges, THEN these thoughts or urges can become stronger at the beginning of these medications. They usually make patient’s symptoms worse for a little while until the brain gets used to these new chemicals, which is normal.
I don’t want anyone out there to skip medication they need because they have not worked on me. Give them a try, if you need to.
My cause is likely due to wonky neurological wiring, and normal brain will not start to plan your demise with these medications if they are taken for anxiety or depression without suicidal thoughts.
For anyone out there suffering of suicidal thoughts, I’m so sorry. I have only tipped my toes in that pool for a few months (and I had an easy way out, too). I can’t imagine how devastating and tiring it must be to live with such thoughts for years on a daily basis.
